mara-mac:

My home will be a home with no loud anger, no explosive rage, no slamming doors or breaking glass, no name calling, shaming or blackmail. My home will be gentle, it will be warm. It will keep my loved ones safe. No fear, no hurt and no worries.

miniangel:

yall see “love” and immediately go to “romantic love” if you translate “love is the whole point” to “romantic love is the whole point” you need to rethink everything because love is found in everything. in community, in friendships, in family, in food, in nature so actually love is the whole point and u can die mad about it. hope this helps <3

urie:

my depression is just like “hey instead of making you sad we’re going to make you really lazy and unable to function so that people just get annoyed with you rather than feel bad for you”

1 Email, 0 Calls

I emailed a counselor last week, but have not heard a response. I’ve avoided phone calls most of my life, but I need to do this.

I always thought I could fix myself, but as I look inside, my calculations have been erased, and I don’t know how to start anymore.

I’ve tried my whole to do better for myself and for others most important in my life, but I predict that without outside interference my skull will be completely split in half from everything I’ve kept inside, and leave me like a headless chicken crashing in a wet barn.

It used to be hard for me to get out of my bed. It used to be hard for me to brush my teeth. It used to be hard for me dress nice. It used to be hard for me to look in the mirror. It used to be hard for me to try new things. It used to be hard for me to plan. It used to be hard for me to speak what I really feel. It used to be hard for me to focus on more than one thing. It used to be hard for me to dream. It was never hard for me to see the good and love in things though.

I was getting better,

I, who sit in silence.

thoradvice:

if you’ve lost years of your life to abuse or mental illness, please know it’s not too late for you. it’s never too late for you. you can do everything you dreamed of when you were a kid - there’s still time. you have time to shape yourself and your life into what you want. there is no time limit on happiness.